I need some motivation to do the things that I wanted to do in the first place! :D

I suppose I had some problem with people who talks a lot and doesn't prove themselves well enough. At least try to be humble enough to learn from mistakes that they have learnt and not criticize too much on other people. Everyone does know something are not worked out as they might think so.

Even if you might have got into some music schools, obviously in the first place you have to prove it that you are able to attain to a standard. Not just being able to play and then stand there and say, I am good. You don't have to say anything, everyone can tell whether you are good or not.